Half way through the 2 month wait

So, we are officially 1/2 through the 2 month wait (by my calculations anyway). Perhaps I have some messed up math, I never was good with numbers. After my D&C the Dr. who I call Zoe, well it is her name and her last name is too hard to say in Greek. Plus it means life in Greek which makes me happy. I guess for the purpose of this blog, I’ll call her Dr. Z. Anyway, Dr. Z told me that I had to wait 2 cycles before we could start again. I thought that meant that my period or bleeding after the D&C would count as one period and the second would be at the beginning of December but no! That one didn't count at all. I waited a full month after the D&C, got my period and then was put on birth control pills for two months. Now I'm trying to get pregnant, why am I on the pill? I swore when I went off of them years ago that I would never go back. I'm too old, I'm married and I want to have kids.

So, here we are, waiting for that all important second period and second set of pills. I'm supposed to go back on the 19th day of the second pack for some sort of shot. I don't really understand but I trust Dr. Z and know she has my best interest at heart. She's been through this personally so she knows what's going on. She was also as upset as we were when we found out about the cervical etopic pregnancy. I don’t feel like a number at all but like a patient she cares about. I feel blessed to have her as my Dr!

Does anyone know about going in on the 19th day of the previous cycle before starting IVF? She said something about going about the process slowly this time. Last time we zoomed from my laparoscopy to IUI to IVF within a matter of about 3 weeks so this strictly IVF is a bit new to me.

Please start my sex drive...

Why does trying to get pregnant and being infertile mean that you loose your sex drive? It's not that I don't find my husband attractive because I do but I'm not interested in sex. I admit that we have a lot going on in our lives but I'm on the pill for 2 months before we start IVF again and I have no sex drive. Is it because with half a uterus I feel like I'm half a woman? Is it because I'm tired of being poked and prodded by doctors and am not looking forward to going through the whole process again. At least the first time I didn't know what I was getting myself into, this time the anticipation is killing me. I should be getting as much sex in as I can before the whole procedure starts again but no, not really interested. I'd rather snuggle. Am I along in feeling this or is it normal?