Is that our little one?

If I have a unicorn uterus and am missing the left side of my uterus, why do the movements that I think are the baby on that side? The movements are about an inch above my pubic hair line and a about 2 inches off center (on the non uterus side).  Any suggestion?s  Is it not my baby?  It doesn't feel like round ligament pain at all but king of little jabs, they are a little painful and stop me in my tracks.  Some of them feel quite low like they are in my cervix.  I don't have gas and actually went to the bathroom today so I don't think it's that either.  It's only 12pm and I've already had two full trays of ice and there is a lot of movement.  After some research I found out that ice water wakes up the little one.  Go figure.  You think I would have put two and two together but pregnancy brain has kicked in full force. 

What do you think?  Could my half uterus be off center by that much?  Is it not the baby?

17 weeks

We had our 17 week appointment and ultrasound on Wednesday and all looks good. We don’t have pictures to share as there weren’t any really clear images. I thought the belly was the head if that tells you anything. According to the Dr., all is going well, the baby has long legs and from what I could see a big body. Heartbeat was fine.


The doctor said she could tell if it was a boy or girl but I don’t want to know so she didn’t tell us. I think my husband may find out later. We’ll see at the next appointment. I think it may have been a little early to tell but although I may feel like a doctor after the year we’ve had, clearly I am not! My mom and best friend at home also want to know for logistical reasons. My mom wants to stock up on baby clothes in the States before she comes for the birth because it is so much cheaper. Well that and let’s face it she can’t take surprises. This is the lady who we hide her Christmas presents unwrapped in her closet until Christmas Eve so she won’t find them. Counter intuitive I know but it works. Then every Christmas Eve my dad and I get together and wrap them. Once we hid something at the neighbors. If they are wrapped under the tree she will unwrap them and wrap them again and you’ll never know. While she claims she wouldn’t do this anymore, we don’t think it’s true. As for my best friend, she had twins last September, a boy and a girl and she is going to keep all the clothes for which ever sex I need. This is awesome, I am so excited. Our kids will be almost exactly a year apart so seasons won’t matter and I’m not kidding you in the pictures I get of them (almost daily) they are never wearing the same clothes

Back to the appointment, the Dr. said I had put on a little too much weight (about 6 pounds in 3 weeks) so I have to watch what I eat a little more. Basically I’m a fat ass but what do they expect when they won’t let me exercise? Hopefully it will settle itself out since my appetite is back to normal and I don’t want to eat everything in sight. No threats yet of being put on the fat ward like my mom. I kid you not, she gave birth to my brother and I at a military hospital and she said they kept threathening to put her in the fat ward if she didn’t stop gaining so much weight. I need to figure out how much she gained. I think I’m going to blame it on my giant chest, I think I could give Dolly Parton a run for her money. I went from a 36C to a 38E and looks like I’m still growing. I’m talking porn star boobs. Too bad they aren’t good for anything as we are on a Dr. order sex ban (more on that later.)

Good news…it doesn’t look like we are going to have to have a clearage. The other ultrasound tech will check again at 22 weeks but so far so good. What a relief!! I was not looking forward to that.
My husband’s grandma is here from England visiting so we invited her to the ultrasound. I think she enjoyed being part of the experience. I say I think because while I’ve been here a year, I still don’t speak Greek and she’s lived in Engand for about 40 years and doesn’t speak English. Actually we both speak about 10 words of the other language so communicating is entertaining.

All in all things are going well. Though we’ve seen this kiddo quite a few times with the ultrasound and heard its heart beat, it still doesn’t seem real. Even when I went to look at maternity clothes yesterday I thought I was an imposter. Maybe when I feel it kicking or when my bump gets bigger. Guess this is the life of the infertiles, we are too cautious and scared to believe it is real.

The Bathroom

I can’t believe about to do this but yes, this will be a whole post related to the bathroom. It seems to be such a big part of my life right now and I wonder if I’m normal. While I hope that you aren’t going through the same thing, it would be comforting to know that there are others out there.

It started a few months ago when I started to get super constipated. I’m talking a week without going #2. When I finally did go it took a lot of work for little results and it sounded like I was having a baby. I would lay on the couch in pain from being so backed up. I had some spotting (info for another post) and wound up in the hospital overnight. The dr. came in when I was on the bed pan and I told her I was having trouble going to the bathroom. While I was talking about #1, she thought I was talking about #2. She said the nurse could give me an enema. At that point it had only been 4 days and the thought of my insides exploding while I was spotting and had passed a blood clot scared me so I declined. 3 days later I took some over the counter (dr. approved) laxatives. It took them 2 days but they finally worked. Thankfully I’m a little more regular in the #2 department, the down side I’m taking iron pills so everything that comes out is black or dark green which is GROSS.

All in all though I thought I was out of the woods, then the need to pee every 30 minutes began. I keep reading online this happens in the 1st trimester, gets better in the 2nd and worse again in the 3rd. For me, it was so, so in the 1st trimester and has gotten progressively worse. Before I got pregnant, I would drink about 1 ½ gallons of water a day and only go to the bathroom 5 or 6 times. I never had a problem. Now, I drink less and go all the time. I’m talking about 10 times from the time I get home from work till I go to bed, a minimum of 3 times in the middle of the night but on average 5. We even went to the beach this weekend a mere hour drive. I had to stop half way home, it was an emergency!! Then, when we got home I had to run to the bathroom.

And the best story of all, a couple of weeks ago I was asleep on the couch and had a dream that I had to pee and I went. A while later I woke up and had to pee for real, only to find out that I had not only peed in my dream, but all over the couch. How gross is that. I’ve never been a bed wetter and here I am at 35 peeing in my sleep. I thought my husband was going to joke about it after I told him but he didn’t. Have I become so gross that these things aren’t even funny? A few days later he came back from the grocery store with some bed pads that I think old people use when they wet the bed. Yes, this is what it has come to. I haven’t peed in my sleep again but it is comforting to know that if I do I’m protected!

Hope you are all doing better in the bathroom department than me.

11 Week Ultrasound

A week late but better late than never.  Our 10 week 6 day ultrasound.  Our little one was waving in the first picture.  They tried to do a normal ultrasound instead of the dildo scan but because my uterus is so wierd, they couldn't get a picture.  Maybe next time.  We go back again next week for another scan :)

No appointment today :(

I had a doctor’s appointment today. I was excited to see our little one again as it has been almost 3 weeks and I’m still nervous about whether things are ok or not. Well, I get to the Clinic only to find out that my appointment is on Monday, the doctor wasn’t even in the office. She arrived late last night from abroad and is only coming in the afternoon. . So, not only did I miss 2 hours of work today and have to stay 2 hours late today to make up for it, I have to do the same on Monday. Plus my Greek classes start again on Monday night so it’s going to be a long, long day…ugh!! Hopefully the rest of the weekend will be better.

Bad Reaction to Projestrone Shot

I’ve been getting Cyclane injections everyday in my stomach and Prontojest injections (progesterone, I think it has a different name back home)  in my butt every other day since my transfer on February 14th. While it’s not fun, it hasn’t been that bad, stinging and burning at the injection sight in my stomach and a week or two where my stomach was black and blue. The butt shots, while they are horrible, they aren’t as bad as last time…until yesterday. Every night I go to bed and feel like I have a golf ball lodged in my butt cheek but I’ve learned to deal with it. Two nights ago, the pain was worse than usual. I got up the next morning and it was painful but nothing to really worry about. Well, as the day went on the pain radiated up my back, taking up the bottom right side of my back and my spine. It was extremely painful and felt swollen to me but I thought I was imagining things. When I got in the car to drive home I could hardly sit and when I got home I had to lay on my side so I didn’t put any pressure on the right side. When my husband got home I made him look at it, I didn’t tell him what was wrong, just that I was having pain. I didn’t want to influence what he said. Well, he didn’t even have to touch me; he just looked at me and said that my back/butt was really swollen and that we should go to the clinic to have it checked out. The nurse checked me out first then sent us upstairs to a doctor (mine was on vacation). I’m still not sure what happened other than it wasn’t an infection but some type of reaction to the medication. I’ve had about 35 of these shots in the past 2 months, why did it just start? They called my regular doctor and told me not to get my injection last night, come back if there was any redness or heat or the pain spread. Thankfully it hasn’t. It feels a little better today so hopefully I’m in the clear. ’m going to see the doctor tomorrow for a previously scheduled appointment tomorrow so we’ll see what she says. I’m supposed to be on the Prontogest shots for at least 2 more weeks and as much as I hate them, I’m also nervous about coming off them.


Anyone else have a strange reaction to progesterone shots? I can’t find anything on the internet.

Infertility on the Today Show

Thought some of you might find this interesting.  It talks about the struggles with infertility and the emotional toll it takes. 

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/26184891/vp/36113935#36132909